elemental compass

Deck - Thoth Tarot
Question - Nothing specific. I just shuffled the deck and asked it to help me.

Center - Myself - The devil.
Transitional period. Demonising myself.

Cross card - The universe
What's on my mind, how I feel I'm being viewed, and what I feel is working against me.

North - Element Earth - Physical
Card 1 - The aeon
Card 2 - Princess of Discs
Card 3 - Interference.
This is showing me that currently I am not looking at myself as a whole. My true physical self is being treated as transparent, and I am working against my own physical body. The princess has her eyes closed, and is not looking at her actual self, and is blindly stabbing out with her staff.

East - Element Earth - Mind
Card 1 - Strength
Card 2 - Adjustment
Card 3 - Queen of Wands
I Currently do have strength of mind, and am mentally prepared to keep moving and fighting forward. I need to accept that there is a time for adjustment in my own self, and my own body. I need to allow this adjustment to happen naturally. The queen here is full of anger and rage that is manifesting itself as a feral cat. Animistic needs and desires that need to be held together by my strength of will and mind.

South - Fire - Action
Card 1 -Lust
Card 2 - Art
Card 3 -Prince of Cups
The actions I need to take now are to succumb to myself and my duality. I am very much of two minds. I need to work with my prince, and create. Lust here isn't a sexual lust, even though this is what initially came to mind. Here I believe it's telling me to take unto myself and allow my art, my skills of creation to wash over me, and take over, as only lust can.

West - Element Water - Emotions
Card 1 - Failure
Card 2 - The star
Card 3 - Swiftness.
Here, my biggest fear is always failure. I tend to shy away from creating because I'm afraid of failing. Same goes for weight loss. I am terrified that I won't be able to do it, and as such, tend to panic when things don't go my way fast enough. Swiftness relates to my ever changing mood. I swing from happy to sad to depressed to angry very quickly. This makes it very hard to not focus on failure. The star however, tells me that I need to feel this. I need to let the feelings wash over me, into me, but I also need to let them go, let them flow through and past me.